That was the bomb that hit us this morning in the vet's office.
I am so broken right now, and faced with decisions that I have to make, but do not even think I can muster up the brain power or focus, to make right now.
She's nauseous because of the lymphoma. And the prognosis is NOT good.
Because it's already spread to her organs. It's made it to her liver and spleen, at least, that he knows of.
Oh jesus christ. I can barely type this.
Since she did not respond to the prednisone (which the dosage was set to treat this), it's not good at all.
We will be going to an oncologist to get an evaluation. Our vet has seen and been successful treating several of his patients with lymphoma with prednisone. But Ella didn't respond to it, which, as I said, is not a good sign.
And that is the update. I'm trying to get myself together, so that I can look into a diet for her, because as it is right now, she cannot hold food down. She has to eat a homecooked, bland diet.
And that's NOT going to get better.
He gave us medicine to help with that.
I am so broken right now, and I'm trying NOT to be. You know, part of my brain is like, "He doesn't know what the hell he's talking about!"
I'm thinking all kinds of crazy crap like, "He's LYING to us!!!" or "Maybe they gave us the wrong dog's lab results."
Because surely this is not happening to Ella.
Just a month ago she was playing outside, running, walking, doing springpole, and walking on the treadmill.
How the HELL would it have spread sooo fast???
But now she cannot even hold food down. Now her tummy is bloated. Now she sleeps all the time.
I cannot type anymore about this right now.
I apologize in advance for any typos or anything that may sound like emotional nonsensical jibberish crap.