You guys are so awesome thank you!!
I was out with the dogs the other day and a woman came up and asked about them ..during what I would consider an already rude interaction (I am teaching the puppies not to jump and asked her to please not allow it ...that it would help immensly if she would also correct them...she said "I dont care if they jump come here puppies jump away!" every correction I made she walked into my space and undermined..I am not myself lately and I just was getting more and more annoyed with her ...
then when we got to the subject of cancer she made the comment
"well my dog had a serious form of cancer too and she was worth it to me to save..so we did surgery and chemo on her ...she was heading for Westminster after all ...so I had to try...it gave her two weeks and she died after treatment but it was worth it to me to at least try she was a huge investment"
why did me ..a pacifist want to just beat the $#%^ out of her ? I mean I seriously had to contain myself! I never get this way ..usually I can just let people blab and ignore the words that come out of thier mouth ..my way of thinking is that I only should care how I behave....but she pissed me off badly and I wanted to hit her!
if it was just a surgery or something I knew we could heal I would do what I could ..but it is the quality of her life that is so meaningful to me not quantity especially when I would just be trying to save her for myself ..not for anything good for her ....and so many very healthy dogs are put down daily ..is it fair to her? to the breed? to me? to all the people trying to place unwanted dogs?
she did win the doggy lottery when she was rescued and has given back so much more than I have given her I believe ...I just can not do this
so thank you so much for being so kind ...your warmth and support is felt and I totally appreciate and empathise ..this just sucks!!!
ps I have no regrets for wanting to hit that lady ...I am glad I didnt it would be totally out of character for me ..but I wanted to and it felt good to kind of picture her flying across the parking lot after I gave her a good wack!!!